Dear time, slow down.

There are times where I wish I could control time to make it go at a speed that fits with my expectations. By expectations, I mean where I expected to be at, at this age. I’m only 22 years old but I feel like I’m not moving fast enough. I know what some of you may be thinking, “you’re still young, you have a lot of time.” and that might be true but it doesn’t feel like it. 

When I was younger, I had my future all figured out. At this age I would be somewhere in Hollywood, producing and selling marketing ideas to big companies like Disney,  FOX, Netflix etc. I should be making about 100k and up (I’m a big dreamer). My family is supposed to be living life and stress free.

As you can see, my life is the opposite of what I thought it would be at this age. Don’t get me wrong, I am 100% grateful for everything I’ve been blessed with and I’m constantly pushing myself harder. I’ll be a senior at SXU (as I stated multiple times) with a BA in Media Communications and a Minor in Marketing (digital concentration).  I’m on the Dean’s list, I have my own radio show segment, I’m a member of three honor societies , and I’ve won many scholarships. (not mentioned to brag). I’ve even written two books that are available on Amazon.

I guess I mean that I’m not where I want to be ‘career-wise’. I have a part time job that I’m grateful for, but I would really love to be in the media industry right now.

Maybe it’s not my time yet?

Sometimes I tell myself, just because I’m not where I want to be right now doesn’t mean it’ll always be like this. My determination and consistency is what sets me apart from many people who want to do what I want to do. My creativity is rare, maybe the industry isn’t ready for me yet?

Or, it could simply be that time doesn’t think I’m ready yet? (I’m talking about time as if it’s a person lol)

I’d definitely feel better if time would slow down though. 

I’m sure I’m not the only one who feels this way, so I thought this would be a great post. We’re all human, it’s okay to admit when you’re not at your best. It doesn’t mean you’ll be that way forever.

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